Monday, December 15, 2008
"The power to trust" titled after by an unwanted ending love story of her life. My friend, she to me, cheerful, happy always. But does anyone goes around showing that they are really happy. True happiness is kept within yourself. To what extend can one trust in relationship. As far as I know, there is now words that can explain it. Only seeing it yourself, and she is an amazing being, that even me, have to put both hands down and say i give up. I know her quite a while, but at least near six months, we don't talk often, however, we are still friends, and i believe there are unlimited time for us to know more about each other in near future.
My impression of her, simple, stubborn, determined and most of all trustful to her love one. These are the three strong components that what I really felt is her point to love, and also her weakness, causing her downfall, time and again. No one in this world is ever strong. I dare say, each and everyone of us holds a weakness. She spend almost all of her time for him, love was once sweet, and at times sour, but she was always believing and trusting in this relationship. Holding on strongly even till the end. To me, the guy, I can only say, he had no idea that he was the most fortunate man on this earth, to have a girl loving so deeply, with no complains, just as simple as wanting him to be more caring and love her more. What can I say, as an outsider's view, I see it as she owe him in her previous life.
The most horrible things was, this guy here, has been two timing her, not once, not twice but quite a number of times. Each ending off she crying and left all alone with all the problems. While he happily enjoyed. However, stubborn enough, she chose to believe him time and over again. Perhaps i guess only the power of love can allow her to do so. Forgiving and starting all over again, was like a daily routine for her. It's not that she was stupid, but please understand, she was just acting out of her will. Meaning that was totally normal for her to react, just like a normal way to react something, nothing wrong what. Each time she caught him red handed, each time the pain pierce through her fragile heart, How much can one take, even the greatest being will fall too one day. But i feel that she deny reality, chose to believe her stand, believing him, and even trying to savage the relationship. It's not even her fault, but she is doing a two mans job. It's like playing double roles, maintaining the balance and everything all alone.
I feel that how could such a nice girl suffer such punishment, or putting it in a nice way, was she blinded by love, no one knows only her. Is loving someone so painful and tiring, but all i could say is, as her friends, i witness her, struggle to hold on, the trust, the fear to lose, even her close best sisters and friends around her, told her to give up, and that it was not worthy, she deserved someone even better. But, she choose and still decided not to heel their advice. But innocencely, decided that there was nothing to lose anyway, but just to put it all on the line. Days goes by like normal, but to her, each day resemble hopes and every moment was like a chance for her. Her vision was all him, addicted to him, and somehow, drowned by his love.
But how could she even able to forgive him time and again for his grave mistake, or should i say, a man's worse mistake, I know human being do make mistakes, but once is ok, not all the time. But I still don't really understand she was still able to forgive him, perhaps, she really needed him, like one say desparate people do desparate things, she will do the wildest things beyond your imaginations. However, I really felt sorry for that guy, why, because simple, he had got such a good girl, devoted, forgiving, and most of all so devoted to him. She was like a rare gem, kept by him selfishly, but she however was willing to be kept by him, where can we find such a person, nowadays, I guess should be extincted already.
But, everyone got their limit, never go over board or even cross the line. The end result will never be good and will really be an impactful one. And indeed it happened, she finally could not take it anymore, after forgivings and waitings. Chances going down the drain, she finally woke up from her dreams, lucky for her everyone felt that she finally woke up from the coma. It's been long, but it was never too late for anything. If you are willing to start making the first big step, everything will start a big change for you, and even lady luck will be smiling at you. After a few month getting over him, she got herself a new lover partner, someone who cherish her, love her, and attentive to what she do for him, and most importantly, appreciating the effort made by her. The big bonus is that they were staying very near each other. To her, i wish that she could go on well in this relationship, and may god bless her because she is really a nice girl, and finally you broke free from your past, your are not stupid, just blinded by love thats all and having the strong power to trust only. Enjoy life and take care, you've got a bright future ahead.
My next story is titled "Christmas season" debuts next Monday 22th December 2008
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